Thursday, October 29, 2009


I am happy to report that Bryan is officially back to normal! We ended up not getting samples of the Levaquin, unfortunately. However, Dr Carroll took good care of Bryan and gave him a higher dose with less pills, so it was less expensive. $80 at Costco compared to $130 at Rite-Aid. Good times.

He coughed for about three weeks after he went to the ER. He recently started running again, which is a good sign. He is back to his old self but swamped with homework, as this is his last semester of his undergraduate degree. He missed 8 school days in all, which is ridiculous when working on a capstone class.

We did not qualify for Medi-cal, which is a bummer. We've paid a few of the bills and are going to go on a payment plan for rest of the bills, which are still to come.

I am still unsure of whether I want to be vaccinated for H1N1. If Bryan had it, and I didn't get it, does that mean I've built up an immunity? If the virus mutates, will I get it then? And if it does mutate, will the H1N1 shot be good anyways? It's so confusing. We want to 'start trying' to have a baby in July or around that time, and I'm not sure I want vaccine in my body... although I got the seasonal flu shot this year without even thinking about it.

I just don't know. You think working in a doctor's office, I'd have a better idea of what to do, and what my risk is. But we only know so much here... we don't even know when we'll get the vaccine.

The funny thing is, I was not really worried about swine flu when the media first starting covering it. I wasn't really worried about it when my husband first got it; it's just the flu. But the pneumonia that accompanied H1N1 terrified me.

So what now?

Monday, October 5, 2009

How He Loves Us (as sung by David Crowder Band)

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

And we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If his grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

(i love this song)

Sunday, September 20, 2009


Today started off extremely hard but got a lot better. At 11 last night Bryan was asleep and Nyquiled up. He was talking in his sleep, then waking up and speaking nonsense. I got worried that his fever may be spiking, and if it gets too high it can leave permanent damage. His words sounded like word salad: "I'm so happy I'm in the middle of the paddle." "I'm sorry, what did you say?" "I'm so happy in the middle river." "Are you okay honey?" "Stop just leave me alone, temperature gauge I'm comfortable." I took his temp and it wasn't too high, so I hoped that it was just the fever and the Nyquil talking. I stayed up until 3 am making sure he was breathing okay. His breaths were rapid, whistling, and wheezy. It scared me.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

As the Ruin Falls

As the Ruin Falls

All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you.
I have never had a selfless though since I was born.
I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through;
I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn.

Peace, re-assurance, pleasure, are the goals I seek,
I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin:
I talk of love -- a scholar's parrot may talk Greek--
But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin.

Only that now you have taught me (but how late) my lack.
I see the chasm. And everything you are was making
My heart into a bridge by which I might get back
From exile, and grow man. And now the bridge is breaking.

For this I bless you as the ruin falls. The pains
You give me are more precious than all other gains.


This is one of my all-time favorite poems.

Friday, July 10, 2009

2 years

I love my husband.

He is just the best. It's true! I put some pictures on Facebook of us, and it just seems right to do the same thing here. Our two year anniversary was July 14, 2009. I can't believe it's already been two years!!! I love him so much more than I did when I married him, but I know that love will only grow. Crazy!

Anyways. Here's from then until now, a brief overview of my baby and me.

You can say "awwwww" now. It's okay.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Naming the blog

I picked "Like the dawn..." because it reminded me of several writings that I enjoy.

To start off, one of my favorite songs is "Jezebel" by Iron & Wine. It's a different take on the biblical story of Jezebel, but my favorite line is "Wait like the dawn, how it aches to meet the day..." This was one of those lines, for me, that just resonated. I wrote it on the inside of journal covers, I sang it out loud, I love this line.... To imagine the dawn aching to meet the day... to image creation in relationship... It always reminded me of waiting to meet the one I was supposed to be with forever, and that ache. The reminder that all creation aches to be redeemed and to be made one with God again. This song was playing on my first date with Bryan... and he kissed me right before "Wait like the dawn..." It seemed perfect.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

So I decided to try this "picture" thing. So here are some pictures from our vacation/cruise in January. They were all taken by either Bryan or myself and I fiddled around with them using Gimp 2.0. All of these pictures will be going on our "artsy picture" wall. Enjoy!

A tower on For San Cristobal in San Juan, Puerto Rico.


Ta-da! First post in my new blog. I have had a Livejournal since April of 2001, but I thought it would be nice to start a new blog that reflected more than just my thoughts. My hopes are to have this blog serve a number of functions: to share aspects of my life, my life with my hubster Bryan, recipes I like, things I've been making, pictures... lots of pictures. I will also be posting some excerpts from books that I enjoy as well as topics that have been on my mind.

This was the most boring blog post ever. I will try to get better, promise. :)